St. John's words:
From Degrees of Perfection:
9. Never give up prayer, and should you find dryness and difficulty, persevere in it for this very reason. God often desires to see what love your soul has, and love is not tried by ease and satisfaction.
· Attempting this now!
· Dryness with written prayer is the reason I’m devising this alternative novena.
· Don’t let this give you the wrong impression that I’m’ doing this dryness thing in the right way. I’ve fallen quite a bit.
· This is not where I am, but this is what I aspire to:
“A genuine spirit seeks rather the distasteful in God than the delectable, leans more toward suffering that toward consolation, more toward going without everything for God than toward possession, and toward dryness and affliction than toward sweet consolation. It knows that this is the significance of following Christ and denying self, that the other method is perhaps seeking of self in God – something entirely contrary to love. Seeking oneself in God is the same as looking for the caresses and consolations of God. Seeking God in oneself entails not only the desire to do without these consolations for God’s sake, but also the inclination to choose for love of Christ all that is most distasteful whether in God or in the world; and this is what loving God means.”
The Ascent of Mt. Carmel, Book Two, Chapter 7